So I went to what I thought would be my March “Parole Hearing,” and it sort of was. I mean, I got to meet with Dr. Carson, my “parole officer,” (oncological surgeon), but I didn’t have a mammogram. Dr. Carson has me back on yearly mammograms, apparently, even though I will still see him every six months.
I’m not sure I’m at all comfortable with this.
I am of the school of thought that knowledge is power, and I don’t know if only being informed once a year, rather than twice a year, goes along with my need to know NOW! I am so used to gearing up for, dreading, looking forward to, being a nervous wreck, anticipating, etc., this event every six months.
I guess I should be glad I only have to go through this traumatic lead-up to the event once a year now, but I’m still not sure I’m at all comfortable with it. I should really trust Dr. Carson. After all, he’s brilliant, and if he seems to think I’m okay going back to yearly, then I should take it as a good sign, yes?
At any rate – I have been given another six-month reprieve and, as usual, I plan to make them the absolutely best six months of my life yet!
Thank you for all the prayers and good thoughts! I love you all!